The Cluttered System

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Last week we talked about the body as a resonance chamber — the possibility that lives in that, what it means, how it ripples. Before I dive into today's topic — what happens when this isn't the reality, what I call a cluttered system — I want to go back into the resonance chamber for a moment.

There's a whole masterclass I led on this, but I want to bring you into the physiology of it: we're made of more than 70% fluids. If you look at water in nature, and place a vibration, a sound, near it, the water moves, ripples. Weather, wind, rain, sun — everything impacts water. Water is super sensitive, super reactive, moved by its environment. And it's the same with the water within us, within the fluids that make up our system. That's part of the reality of the resonance chamber — how things move in us, how our body, our inner system, is impacted by so many different things. I haven't even mentioned the moon and lunar states — that's a whole topic in itself, maybe a future episode.

But just to open your mind to the reality of your body, and how it ripples, how it moves through — the thing that stands in our way, that makes us less conscious, less aware of this reality, is our defenses. We've dived a little into this in previous episodes. Our defenses aren't just behavioural patterns — they sit very deep in our muscle tissue. And when our defenses are rigid, or built with a lack of awareness within them, they sit outside our range of awareness and consciousness — which is a physical reality, not just a philosophical one.

That means we have less awareness of these defenses, and less direct sense of them. And another layer to this: our defenses weren't built now. They live within our system, built through our development. So often, when we react through defense, we're reacting from an inner part, an older part — some would call it an inner child part. We're not necessarily reacting from the here and now, from our current life situation. Something in current life triggers an old structure to react. So we could say that when we're in a highly defensive state, we're also not fully present in the here and now. This is the link, and the distinction, between the potential of the resonance chamber of our body to be moved by things, and our awareness actually being there. I listen to someone speak, I'm moved in a certain way, my body reacts in a certain way, and I'm connected to that, I feel it, I'm even guided by it. Or — I'm completely disconnected from that, and instead caught in a high reactivity of defenses. More reactivity than an actual felt sense of what's currently moving in me.

This is what I mean when I describe the system as cluttered — because our defenses can be so loud, so looping, that they make us believe this is the reality, the only reality. And our defenses can also be linked to addictive behaviours, addictive patterns, addictive preferences. That, in itself, clutters the system further. Think about addiction to sugar, and how it plays within the system — it clutters the internal signalling of what the body actually needs, what it actually feels. Everything gets compensated for, exchanged, with sugar. I feel sad, I want sugar. I feel something else, I want sugar. I'm hungry, I need nourishment — my body replaces it with sugar, or coffee, or cigarettes, whatever the addiction is. Our addictions are always replacing, and a little numbing, the real needs and wants of our physiology, our healthy, balanced physiology.

The more we can — and I know not everyone will agree with me here, I can hear some people who live with addiction saying, "No, this is my opinion, this is my experience" — but our addictions clutter our system. And there's a potentiality, when the system is decluttered, when we can actually hear our system's signalling, to experience our deficiencies directly — how the body wants things because of deficiency, has impulses toward things because of deficiency. I know this reality exists within our system.

I don't think we're all there. I think some of us are very far from it. But I know our body is deeply intelligent. We know this from many other fields too — our bodies strive for homeostasis. And this homeostasis shows up across different realities — in regulation, in nutrition, in physiology, in many other realities within our systems that, in our world, we for some reason dissect and separate into different fields. But in reality, they sit in one system, and they nourish, communicate, and regulate together — this is how the body strives toward homeostasis. Sometimes, under the conditions our body actually lives in, that homeostasis doesn't look like homeostasis to us. Sometimes it looks like symptoms, like something flaring.

We need to be able to look at our system, our body, holistically — in a way that includes everything it includes. Within us, everything sits together. So the potentiality of a resonance chamber isn't just a potentiality — it's a reality. But many of us are so disconnected, so cluttered away from it, that we don't actually have a sense of it. The closer we get to listening, the more capacity we build, the more we become aware of the voices of our defenses, and the closer we get to the signalling of our bodies — which holds both our defenses and our attunement, our resonance, the signalling that comes through the physical.

Some time ago I heard a teacher speak about discernment as a capacity of the body — the body's capacity to sense discernment, to be in discernment. That threw me into such an observation, on everything I hold and know, and on language, and how we use language to describe inner experience — and how we could get better at that language. Discernment. It was the first time I'd heard this word connected to work with the body, and it impacted me profoundly.

In a world of AI, of fake filters, of fillers and so much synthetic material, discernment sits in our ability to experience and sense something that is alive, something that is real. We have to realise that our body lives in this reality. Our body comes from biology, from nature, is deeply connected to it, deeply comes from it. So we also have a built-in capacity to sense discernment — to sense what is alive, what is true, and what is not. The same way mammals, animals, are capable, with their sense of smell, of sensing what is real, what is not, what is good for them, what is poison, what is alive. An animal will not eat plastic. An animal will not be drawn to something synthetic — an animal that's still connected to its nature. Some of us, and some indoor animals too, have become disconnected from that, the way we've disconnected from it ourselves.

So this clutter in our system comes from years, from a reality, in which we've moved away from our natural capacity to sense what is real, what is alive, in our senses. We've moved into a life full of synthetic things. We live in enclosed apartments and houses. We consume food that, if we were still connected to our nature, might not even register as edible. Drinks and things so sugary, so processed. I know I'm moving here into territory that isn't originally what I'm about — it's not even my own reality — but I have to place it on the table of these conversations, because it's part of the reality we all live in.

And then people aren't sure why symptoms are rising in their system — because we've moved so far away that we've lost connection with what's real, with what nourishes us, with what supports us. We synthesize everything — our bodies, our soils — we've completely lost connection. We need to name this, in order to walk back to our region, to our nature, to our discernment.

This is such a big topic, because we live in a world of so much noise. We consume our reality through social media, through short clips, and think we know what's happening on the other side of the world, in cultures so far from our own reality. We project onto it — our norms, our values, what we think is real and what isn't. We become so far removed from factual reality. We believe in mass hysteria, and we forget to stop, to slow down, to pause, to sense it in our body, and to make choices that are conscious and aligned with our body's response.

This is the first time I'm opening up to talk about this, but everything that's come out recently around the Fauci files just confirms the factual reality of what I sensed six years ago, when COVID came up. And I know — I'm sorry — so many of us took this on unconsciously, simply because of the mass hysteria around us. So many people paid huge prices for it.

So there's an urgency to come back to this kind of deep, embodied connection with the intelligence in our system. There is so much to unlearn here. So much to relearn. So much to unpack, from what we were conditioned into, and conditioned away from — what chronically cluttered our system, what put us into a toxified, inflammatory, chronic state, and distanced us so far from that intelligence.

This is hard for me — the first time I've talked about it like this. But it is time. So many people paid a price for this, and so many people are still so synthesised in their beliefs. We need to come back to what is real. And it goes all the way back to the basics — to the ground, to the soil, to the core of our physiology. To what we eat, how we sleep, what we consume, what we let in — our body, our energetic body, our environment. To what we bind ourselves to believe, and to what we hold ourselves back from and say: hold on, let me deeply sense into this. Let me learn how to sense into it. Let me come back to my discernment. Let me learn how to connect with that in me. Let me learn how to declutter my system, so I can reconnect with what is real, with what is authentic, with what is alive in me, what resonates, what is moving in me.

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